'"I'm significant!" screamed the dust speck'
I'm jus tired. Tired of doing work, tired of being friendly, tired of making concessions (to everyone) tired of being funny, tired of the pretensethat eveything's okay, tired of being me. This isn't a suicide thing, but if it weren't fo the fact that it would hurta lot of people, I'd consider not living anymore. I'm tired of that, too. And I'm being very self-centered right now. Which needs to stop. I'm not important enough to devote ths uch attenion to how pathetic I am. Maye I shoud just do something abou that,not be so fucking pathetic anymore, surprise people by being a decent person for once. You know why I don't? Caus I'm too damn tired to. So I collapse again in self-pity, because "oh poor me, I can't do it, I need to take a break, not deal with things for a while." I actually have to gall to say that I need a break, when there are so many other people, who work so much harder than I do, and they're not bitching. I'm sick of myself, and I'm sick of talking about it. Going now, see if I can kick myself into doing something useful for a change.